march 12 2015

its so frustrating that you know you are the reason why thîngs now become complicated but still theres nothing you can do. that no matter how you think of it you re the reason why they struggle. its so hard to see them stressed out because they have nothing. that even for food is a big problem to them. how i wish i can help them i really want to help them but how. i really dont know right now what to do. im a liability now for my family. its so hard for me i do hope theres something i can do to help them i really have to think of something or else we will not eat anymore.

March 3 2015

Everytime I feel so depressed I just think of things that will make me feel fine. I don't want to think negatively as it wouldn't help me at all. I'm trying to think good things for me to be well. I admit at first I used to think na I wanna die or something, that I can't take my condition anymore but that was before, I think in my early fights but now, No way I wanna fight for my family. I wanna fight because I still want to do something for them. Yun nga lang things are so difficult for us for the present. As financially we're struggling. As of present we're having problems even in finding money for our food. I really don't know what to do now to help my family.. My blogs always contain this that we are now struggling financially. Hay life... I can't even go out la budget but that's fine what's important is that I'm ok and alive that's what my mom says... She keeps on saying that. Even though we're struggling still I'm alive and she thinks that's what important... I just wish we can still survive this.... GOD WILL PROVIDE I know and we're just giving surrendering everything to the Lord. I know He's helping us. In God's time I know I'll be well...