I just wonder what year we'll have this 2015. I just hope that we'll get lucky. Of course without hard work, without doing anything, nothing will happen for us. But still, I'm curious. It's been a long journey for me and my family. Having this condition is so tiring but still we have to fight. Smile in every way we could. Just handle the situation lightly. As I can recall, the time I was diagnosed, I saw my mom lost her weight. She was so worried and it showed in her face but now, as I look at her, even though she's still worried and thinking of where to get money for my medicines and food, she gained weight which I loved seeing. I love seeing her smile. Also as I can recall, I never saw my dad cry, but when I was in the hospital bed ridden, so so down and frustrated, given up, my dad cried as he expressed how difficult it is also for them my situation. How they are doing everything even in the hardest way they'll do everything for me. I was touched during those times. Maybe that's the reason why now, I wanted to fight, I wanted to survive this and I know in God's will I can survive, we can survive this. My family is my treasure. I can't even work far from this place, knowing I will never see them even for a day. As I can recall, I used to apply just here in Laguna and when I got hired, I cried not because I was touched of the thought of being hired immediately but because I'm worried that I have to stay there for a week then go home afterwards. Thinking that I will never see them in a day is so hard for me. They are my treasure. That is why I applied in a company nearby where in I was lucky enough to meet so wonderful people. I missed them. I missed working and earning even if I just earn a little compare to my other college classmates. I'm lucky and happy enough because I get to see my family everyday and I can give something to my mom even if its just a small amount. We were happy then. After work me and my mom just go to the mall window shopping and then eat together. How I wish I can turn back time and cherish all these moments again. I so missed it. But then this condition happen. Maybe that is why it was so hard for me to accept at first my condition. I even told my mom I wanna die and haven't noticed that it was more difficult for them hearing all those words I said. I regret the times I told her that, because I hurt her but I can't change the fact that I already had said those words to her. But now I'm trying to be strong for them. I know I am well. Maybe not as strong as before, maybe not too well but I know God healed me through Father Fallier. I'm so glad I attended his mass here in Brgy Concepcion at the Immaculate Concepcion Church. I think my first healing with him I wasn't healed well or the Holy Spirit didn't get in me because I was too worried about me collapsing. But in the healing in Brgy Concepcion I was in a wheelchair then that is why I am worry free I felt that I was really healed and at this moment even though I still can't walk far distances, I can say I can walk well than before. God is really great. I also wanted to visit the St Pio Shrine here in Sto Tomas Batangas apparently we don't have a car to use. Also we don't have money for the expenses. I also wanted to visit Our Lady of Manaoag again. The last time I visited there I can still walk and go upstairs but apparently right now I can't do that. But of course our hindrance is the money to use in travelling. I want to tour around I'm really bored at home. Been at home most of the times staring at the four sides of the house, watching tv, surfing the net, facebooking. Most of my friends and relatives been teasing me that I'm always online 24/7. Well what else can I do, It'll be more boring if we don't have internet. Luckily internet has been created and so my boredom is lessen. There are lots of things I wish I experienced. Thing I wish I had given to my family but then they are just wish. Sad but true. I love my family. I will survive this I know we  can survive this....

This condition of mine is associated with so many side effects. As of now I have Diabetes, and even develop hypertension. Well it's because I gained weight. My bones and muscles are also affected. I am 30 years old but my bones are for an 80 year old and up person. Well honestly I already embraced all of these effects. What's important for me is that I'm alive, smiling laughing with my family. I'm having blurry vision already, My gums are swollen my teeth are having problems. So many problems associated with my treatments but I guess that's part of it..

Still I'm lucky enough because even if we're not rich, we're financially lacked, we can still eat 3 times a day, living in one roof, living in our small home, happy and loving each other. We're lucky than those featured in TV patrol, those families living in karitons. That's why I'm still thankful to have my family..

I know they're tired of seeing me like this and having this predicament but still we're fighting. I just wish this coming new year that all these sick people be well and that I'll be well. That no one will get sick in my family. That whatever happens will stick together as family.

I guess when i get well, and still can't work I guess I'll just stay home and help them in home works as far as I can. What I wanted to do when I regain my strength is that I want to learn how to cook for my family. I am a frustrated cook haha. I wanna learn to cook for my family. I know my mom is tired of doing everything for us. 

Anyway as of now, what's important is that I'm alive. I will fight I will definitely fight. 

As I watched TV patrol last night, I thought of I shouldn't think of complaining about our financial problem. As these people that they helped and given Christmas gifts are people that has nothing compared to us. At least me and my family have our own house while they're just staying in "karitons". They are also quite a big family as most of them has 4 to 5 members of the family. They were given a Christmas party and Christmas gifts that made them smile this Christmas. Happy to see what TV patrol did for them. It touched my heart and thought that I'm still lucky even if I'm sick having this fatal disease, I'm still lucky to have my family, have our own house and still eating 3 times a day. Heard that most of them just earned 50 pesos above, I can't imagine what to buy in this amount having 4 to 5 members of the family whoa... Imagine that. Most of them work as "mangangalakal" or those who are just selling trash. Seeing them makes me feel that I'm really still lucky. I can't imagine myself having this sickness living in kariton and having 50 pesos above earnings. I guess my life will not extend for 6 years and will die immediately after being found out that I'm sick. I just wish good health for them I can't imagine if one of them especially the kids get sick, where they are going to find money for the expenses, they really have nothing.

It just saddens me, but I guess this is life. This is our life. Embrace it and try to chance what should be changed. Try to make your life good and great and just enjoy life to the fullest. As if you get sick you couldn't do anything in life. Like me, I'm just here at home for the past years I'm just here at home. So just enjoy life as long as you can....

It Christmas time. I thought as I age I wouldn't enjoy this special day. That it'll turn out to be just a normal day for me but come to think of it I somehow enjoy it. Not totally enjoyed as I'm kinda thinking that before, when I was still working I used to give something for my parents even on my own little way. Something like material things or just money to include for our food. But now, well I have nothing. Another frustrating reality is that I am now the one being given something for Christmas. hehe.. I received something this Christmas and will save it for my medicines. I just hope someone will give me money again so that my savings will increase. I really need money for my medicines. My wish for this Christmas and even these past Christmases, is that I'll get well and will back to my normal self. Though I know things wouldn't be the same for me but still I want to be well and strong. 

Come to think of it, I'm always complaining about the pain I'm having but when I found out about how painful my auntie is having, I think my condition is nothing compared to her. I know my condition is serious and fatal and so as she but the pain, she's experiencing more pain than I am.Sometimes I wonder why do we have to experience this sickness. I do hope she'll be well but apparently no comment. 

I don't know why things happen this way. I shouldn't ask because I know this is what God wants to happen and He knows the right thing. Still can't help it but to think how other people enjoy their life while us, sick people, trying to find a way to extend our lives. 

It's Christmas, I just wish all these sick people be well, that I'll be well and no more pains to experience during treatments. Hay... 

Well there are times that I feel so down because of my condition but come to think of it, I shouldn't feel down. I know that the Lord is here for me. That whatever happens He will help me in His own way. That even if we are having financial problems, I know that He's doing something so that we can survive, that anyhow we can still stand in this predicament. 

I know my life is boring. Even before my life is boring much more at present hehe. But I'm happy because I'm alive, imagine I survived 6 years of this disease and still praying to get well. I know that time will come. People say I'm strong, well I don't know. I'm frightened most of the time just hiding it. Can't show it to anyone especially to my mom since she's much afraid than me. I have to fight as well.

I'm also glad that friends are here supporting praying for me. They're helping me in their own little way. Whichever way or whatever way they have, its very helpful for me. I'm glad having them around. Though we're far apart still in our hearts I know that they're not forgetting me. How lucky I am of having them.

At this moment, can't go out, can't leave the house. Might get viruses or bacterias, infections outside though I'm wearing face mask. And it's so tiring to get out of the house though I'm using wheelchair. Much tiring for my dad who's pushing my wheelchair. There are times I wanna go out but avoiding it.

I just wish I can go out and just have fun but can't. Anyway, Right now, I'm glad with everything though I'm feeling these pains, I'm still glad because I'm alive.. I just wish these pains will lessen.. 

It is so frustrating having this pain. My mouth swollen. It is really painful. Maybe these are caused by my medications. But nothing I can do since I really need this medicines. To be honest I so wanna try taking Organique acai berry apparently its quite expensive. Almost same price of my Cyclosporine. Life. Aside to this painful mouth sores, injections from insulin is a bit painful as well. I'm quite tired of all these pains but I'm tying to fight because I wanna live. I know how wonderful life is. I still wanna experience life with my family. 

Also it's frustrating that I wanna work for my family for them to just rest and relax and have a wonderful life but then things turned out differently, my mom is the only one working for us and I know she's tired. 

Aside to mouth sores, my muscles, my legs sometimes are painful also.. Even my eyes. A lot of pains I'm experiencing but still fighting. Hoping praying that one day i'll be well. I'll be able to go out again.

As of the moment I'm so bored at home. I'm just here at home, in front of my computer writing to my blog, facebooking, twitting, instagraming just surfing the net. If only there is something I can do to earn money through web I'll do it. I am a fast typer and I might use it in typing jobs. 

Sometimes I don't want to get out of bed since I'm feeling these pains. Sometimes all I wanna do is just sleep so that I won't feel any pain.. Having Aplastic Anemia is so hard. Lots of medicines, Lots of pains. I call this sickness a disease of rich people since you'll be needing, spending lots of money. Well we're not rich sad to say.

I do hope that pain will be lessen. I don't know but these couple of days I feel so weak. Weak in a sense that I just wanna lay on my bed just sleep. I don't know but that's how I feel.

I do hope that I'll be well and the doctor will get rid of my medicines.. I'm so tired of these medicines.. 

It's been a while since I last wrote here in my blog. Well actually I kinda stopped writing since I think nothing good happens in writing but I guess I'm wrong because through this I can express myself especially I am so moody because of my sickness, I guess this will be helpful for me to eliminate my stress. As of the moment I've been writing a diary so I guess this blog will serve as my public diary :). As of the moment Christmas is fast approaching. Apparently at this time we still have nothing to serve for Christmas. I even don't have medicines as of the moment. Being an Aplastic Anemia patient is so hard. A lot of pain I'm experiencing right now A lot of side effects I am having at the moment. My mouth have problems like gums are swollen and teeth are weakens. Can't walk well, can't walk in long distances. Muscle pains. Head aches.. A lot of side effects are into me right now. I guess because of my medications. I even have diabetes now and my creatinine level starts to ascend again. Hayst. Been injecting insulin now and taking so many medicines apparently at this moment we don't have money to buy medicines. That's the reason why I'm trying to ask people through social media for my appeal to help me with my expenses. I'm jobless because of my condition and my mother is the only one working as a government employee. She loaned a lot that needed to be paid until now and to be honest she only has a small amount to take home. Right now, my medicines are taking all that my mom has from her salary leaving us to have problems with our food and other expenses. It feels so frustrating that even if you know this, there's nothing you can do to help. There are times that I wanted to think, to do, to act, to help them but there's nothing I can do but just show my smile so that they wouldn't think that I'm thinking. I know they'll get mad if they knew I'm thinking much as it'll stress me out. But I guess I can't help it but to think. If only there is something I can do to help I will do.

If ever there are people reading this blog, I just hope that this will not only let you learn a bit about Aplastic Anemia but to pls donate also for my expense. Informations about donations are posted in this blog also :).. Your donation is really a big help.

Next time I will write my personal feelings. Things that happen to me in everyday life :) ... This will serve as my public diary aside to my personal journal hehe. 

/Thanks everyone for reading this

6 years had passed and I'm still on medications. Medications that are so expensive and my parents can't afford it. As of the moment we really don't know what to do, where to find money for my medications. This is a long term medication, long term treatment. I'm feeling sad, frustrated that I am such a failure for my family. At this age, I should be helping my family, working and maybe have a good job already but I guess that's not my fate. I am here, at home, doing nothing, resting, taking medicines and giving problems to my family as they're thinking of where to get money for my medications. My mom is the only one working and loaned a lot already that she has to pay. I know how tired she is already and wanted to stop working but she can't because of me. Medications are not the only problem even for my transfusions. Transfusion is part of my treatment also. It saddens me to see how tired my parents are because of my condition. That's why I am appealing to all of you to pls do help me. I know i've been asking this for years already but there's nothing I can do. If only we have money for business, we'll try to do some business to support my condition but we have no money for it. Pls do help me. Any amount will do.. If there is a foundation that you know helping my case pls do inform me. I would like to apply for any foundation so that there is an assurance of my medication monthly. Pls do help me guys.. Again I am Vanessa Mojado 30 years of age an Aplastic Anemia patientany help any amount you would like to donate pls contact me to 639152794456 or 639999157143

Landbank account: Vanessa C Mojadoaccount number: 1316 1244 50 SAN PABLO CITY LAGUNA BRANCH

Smart Money: 5299 6752 4716 6117 Gcash: 639152794456

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ASKING FOR YOUR KINDESS

Pls do share your blessings..I am Vanessa Mojado, APLASTIC ANEMIA patient, undergoing
treatments through medication (with blood transfusion
sometimes), asking for your kindness by simply helping me
with my expensive medications. Any amount will do and
appreciated. Also if you know some foundation helping my
case, pls do inform me, I'm also looking for foundation.
One of my medicines is Ciclosporin which is expensive as it
costs 64.75 for 25 mg. I'm taking as of now 6 tabs daily (75 mg 2x a day). Also
i'm taking steroids (Prednisone) and other vitamins/medicines.
As of the present i'm injecting Humalog Mix 50 / Novomix 70/30 (insulin) which
costs about a thousand pesos.
Everyday I am taking these medicines and everyday I'm
needing money. I know I shouldn't ask this to all of you but we
can't handle the expenses anymore. It's been years and my
mom is the only one working as a gov't employee as my dad is
taking care of me. She only has small amount of money to take
home as she loaned before for my expenses that she has to
pay until now.
I know I can win this battle but I'm needing your help and aside
to prayers that I know friends, family and all of you are doing for
me, I'm needing financial help. I'm hoping for your kindness to
pls do share your blessings. I know asking this is too much but
I'm doing this and swallowing my pride because I still want to
live.
Thank you in advance..
P.S. Sorry for flooding your news feed about my condition
for your help you can send it to my account 1316 1244 50
(landbank account) Vanessa C Mojado is the account name
TY..
you can also send donations via western union or any remittance center just inform me by texting me to my number +639152794456 or contact me via fb THX